Growing, Growing, Growing

I have decided that being a Mommy is the best job in the world! Only had 9 days of practice so far, but they have been amazing! Connor is such a sweet little boy...very patient, doesnt cry very often, and he makes the cutest little sounds and faces! I can't wait for Caleb to get to see him!!! He'll be here tomorrow :) it will be so wonderful! This past week Connor has seemed to grow so much! His umbilical cord fell off this morning too. And he has been doing very well puttting weight back on! :) i sure wish he wouldnt scratch his face though lol. He had his first Drs Appoinment this week and his weight was back up to 8 lbs 1oz... and he'd already grown 1/2 inch! 21 1/2 inches now! We took him in again today becuase he had this weird lump on his head, but she said it was normal, and like a bruise from the pushing. He has gained more weight already and is 8lbs 5ozs now! Probably because he likes his eating so much now lol :) We have another appointment next week. Hopefully he'll just continue to grow strong and healthy! We're going to have a very exciting weekend while his Daddy is here! Soooooo excited!!!!

He's Here!!!!!

Connor Scott Barthlome - Born Tuesday May 17th, 2011 at 11:32 AM. 8 lbs, 9ozs, 21 inches long.

It was a long process, but he's finally here! We went in to be induced Monday morning, but by the end of the night still had made little progress. My mom came back home to sleep for the night, but i called her around 3 in the morning and told her to come back because i was dialated to a 4 and they were going to start me on the IV. i was a whimp and asked for an epidural only 1/2 an hr after that, but i felt sooooo much better after. It was hard not having Caleb there, or even being able to be in constant contact with him. Through alot of the process he had no clue what was going on. By 8:30 i had reached an 8, and had to have to Anesthesiologist come back in because only half of me was numb. I was worried that would happen due to my scoliosis, but after he came in and fixed it up i was completely fine: completely unabe to move my legs of feel at all, and that was just how i wanted it. When i was finally ready to start pushing Caleb called me from just getting out of class, and was able to get on Skype! So he was able to share in the birth somewhat by atleast being able to watch and talk me through the pushing. It was a wonderful tender mercy from the Lord in my mind. It only took about an hr and a half to push, and when he was finally out he was perfect! He was born with one litte hand by his face, which i thought was so cute since in ultrasounds he was always covering his face up with his hands. I was able to call American Red Cross shortly after the birth, and they FINALLY sent a message to his base, so Caleb is getting t come home this next weekend to see us!!! :) He decided to wait to come until Memorial Day Weekend because they get a 4 day weekend, so he won't have to miss any school, therefor his Graduation date won't get pushed back any. :) I can definently tell the Lord is very mindeful of our needs.

I got to bring Connor home on Thursday. He is the sweetest little boy, and rarely cries. He loves his sleep, and has finally gotten the hang of the eating thing! I have been taking all sorts of pictures and videos for Caleb so that he will not miss out on anything. Caleb flies in around 10 on Friday, and will get to stay until Monday when he flies out early that morning. It will be a short trip, but definitely worth it :). My mom heads home Friday with my Dad. He is flying down Thursday and then they are driving back together. I'm kind of nervous for it to just be me and Connor here at home, but i am confidant we will be through it despite difficulties. And we are planning to get a new car while Caleb is here, so that should solve all the car troubles we have had, and keep Connor and i from roasting to death this summer.I am definitely taking advantage of every minute I'll have with my men this weekend! :)

A Final Date

Well, we have an official date for when our little guy should be here. Being induced on Monday the 16th. There was once again no progress at my appointment earlier this week, so, we went ahead and scheduled an induction. I was super excited about it at first, because i figured if it was all scheduled ahead of time then we could arrange to have Caleb there....but no such luck. The American Red Cross won't send word to his base unless its a medical emergency, and because of heightened security right now there is no way Caleb can be allowed to leave without that message. So, needless to say, i was ticked off...thinking a million angry, mean things, and swearing i'd never again give blood for those horrible red cross people! Any attempts to calm me down or even pity me only made me more angry...and Caleb was pretty much heartbroken over the fact that he won't be there. But I suppose thats what i get for trying to plan these types of things, and getting my heart set on something that has to be approved by the military... i can hear my dad's voice in my head reminding me "its all a bunch of hurry-up and wait!" but i wasnt listening to that voice beforehand, and now i've paid the consequences of extreme disappointment....way to go me! So now i'm just waiting until Monday, and wishing people would just stop asking me when Caleb is coming. He's not...don't know if he'll be allowed to...don't know how long he can stay...don't even know anything at all. Its all alot more frustrating than i remember it being...but inspite of it, i'm remaining mostly positive. but i cant promise not to punch the next person who bugs me about him missing it. I will once again call the red cross on monday, this time when in labor, and see if they will send a message. if they won't, then after the birth they will have to. then Caleb should be able to find out what kind of leave and how much they will give him and when. nothing will be known until after that red cross message is sent, and thats the bottom line. but i am confidant that despite however it works out, things will turn out ok, and it will work out in the way Heavenly Father intends it to. Even if it isn't how i want it to work out, i will survive. im learning to see this whole experience in a different light, even though its not enjoyable whatsoever... its definently a learning experience. And i am grateful to have my mom here with me for all of this. if i cant have Caleb with me, the next best thing is my Mommy.

Anxiously Waiting

And waiting.....and waiting....and waiting....

Pretty much thats all life consists of right now. Just continuely trying to remind myself to be PATIENT and he'll come when he's ready!!!!! I never expected it to be like this. But all i can say, is that i am ready to hold my baby, and i'm ready to see my hubby. My Doctor's Appointment last week was not as encouraging as i'd hoped due to the fact that i still have not continued to progress. Grr! But... if that is still the case this Tuesday then we will start talking induction. Which scares me a bit to tell you the truth... but at the same time.... if i were to get induced there is a million more times a chance that Caleb will be there with me. Which i would LOVE! So now i'm just trying to hang on two more days until the doctor says whether Connor will be making an appearance on his own, or whether we will be gettin him out whether he likes it or not! I'm nervous and excited, but mainly anxious. My mom and me have been doing our best to keep busy with little projects (mainly scrapbooking) and lots and lots of walks. But my little guy still insists on being stubborn! Caleb said he must get that from me :) hehe. The waiting game is really starting to kill me! My due date is on Friday, and my doctor doesn't want to let me go too far past it, so i think its safe to say that within 2 weeks he will be out FOR SURE!!!!!! atleast that thought gives me a bit of peace lol. :) stay tuned for updates!

Mommy to the Rescue!!!!!!

My mommy is here with me now :) she came down wednesday night, because at my doc app appointment on tuesday the doc said im dialated to a 1 and 50% effaced already. i know that isn't a big deal for some women, but i don't know if i'm one of them or not, and it is much better to be safe than sorry....so my mommy came down to be with me so i am not alone. we will see how i am at the next appointment in 2 days. part of me hopes it wont be too much longer because i dont want to take my mom away from the family for a majorly long time... but i just dont know. caleb talked to one of his sergeants and they told him he'll probably only get a weekend to come home, so now im thinking theres probably only a tiny chance he'll be here for the birth....but im trying not to panic and definently not to make him feel worse about it! my mom has been helping me get everything ready, and i've even put a picture of him in the hospital bag so he'll be with me no matter what. kinda cheesy i know...but it helped me feel less worried. i'm beginning to get excited to hold my little guy... :) due in less than 3 weeks now!

Visiting My Love

i am back from SC and seeing Caleb!!!! :) it was an amazing trip and I'm soooooo glad i got to go! and Caleb DID end up getting a weekend pass after reporting to AIT, so i got to spend a couple more days with him :). it was expensive, but worth it. And now things are going alot easier, since he gets a few hrs of personal time every day AND has his phone. so we can txt everyday, and talk on the phone :) and he has internet access to email and facebook! so far its making the continued separation much easier on me. he seems pretty excited about his MOS, which is 25U... something to do with computers and radios and technology lol. I'm just glad he finished his BCT and is excited about what is coming next for him :).

Jessica went home to Idaho today. She's probably on the plane right now as i'm writing this. i think she enjoyed her stay with me here, and i know she made ALOT of new friends, and i'm just glad she was able to make some good memories and make it a learning experience. I think she will have just as good of a time back at BYU-I. Now that she is gone, i'm going to be devoting my time to preparing the house for the baby, and gettting all of his things set up :) i'm probably going to start putting together a hospital bag soon. i'm beginning to get really nervous, and i'm trying to be as prepared as i possibly can lol. kinda pathetic i know. Melinda and Mitchell had their baby on the 1st. she was induced the 31st, and was exhausted by the end of the labor, but it went just fine. They named him Elisha Mitchell Hill. and he was born at 1:13 am, 8 lbs 13 ozs, 23 inches long. he was a big  boy! Makes me kinda of nervous about our little guy, but Eli is so cute that i start getting excited to meet my little Connor. Caleb is really excited too :) we're still hoping and praying they will give him a nice amount of leave so he can come home and spend some time with us. That is what i'm most stressed about. I'm terrified he won't even be here for the birth. so i try not to think about it.... but i know it worries him too. but i guess we just have to accept whatever happens and have faith.

1 Year Down

The 27th marked our 1 yr anniversary! it was hard spending it alone, but i was super excited because he got to call me! :) it definently made my day. and earlier this week i woke up to a wonderful anniversary gift from him, with a little help from jessie. he wrote her a letter a few weeks ago asking her to do this. i got a dozen red roses and chocolate covered strawberries! i woke up and they were on the table with a little note from him :) i was soooo excited! he planned it out ahead of time all on his own! he also sent me a special letter this last week for it too :) so all in all, it was a good anniversary :)

its been a rough week since i haven't been able to mail him letters :(. but i got three from him wednesday, and in it he told me that he gets to spend thursday night with me before i drive him to AIT on friday! i am SUPER excited! i'm still hoping he gets a weekend pass at AIT once he checks in, but he said he will not know until that day. so i must be patient, try to estimate costs, and wait and see what happens. we are down to exactly a week until i fly to SC! i started packing today, and i've been working on a list of any last minute things i will need to buy to be ready. i have pretty much everything i need, there's just a few lingering things that i have procrastinated getting.  but i will DEFINENTY be ready!

This week is my last week of work. i work tomorrow and friday and that is it! i admit i will miss my employee discount though lol. i still have a bunch of little baby things to get, and i KNOW the cost are going to add up! but i will just not complain, and buy the things i need like every other normal new parent. I had to call out sick from work yesterday because of not feeling so swell. i somehow managed to have a hypoglycemic "episode" as the nurse called it lol. i nearly passed out, and couldn't even walk! i fell over and hit the wall. i did NOT feel good! i couldn't stand for more than like a minute either. i tried getting some food into me, but it didn't solve the problem. it took all day to get back to normal. and by all  day i mean til this morning. i was laying in bed pretty much all day yesterday, and eating, and drinking water. it just took me a while to recover. it definitely scared me though. and last week i had Bronchitis, so i've just been having quite an interesting time these last few weeks! i am determined to be in perfect health for my trip to see Caleb!

This week Caleb's Company is doing their last major event, called Victory Forge! It is a 4 day over-nighter, where they take pretty much all the skills they've learned and use them to accomplish all these different things. He was pretty excited about it in his letter :) i hope its really fun for him! i did read on facebook though that the weather there is pretty nasty right now and all the SIT's are probably completely miserable :(. i'm hoping its not too tough on them, and that they don't get sick. they're almost done!!! just one more week! and Caleb said after this, they pretty much don't do anything, so i guess they really only have 2 more days lol. i'm very excited for Caleb :) i can't wait to see him!!!!