The Start of Something New

Well, Caleb is gone. Gone, gone, gone. And yes I'm being a perfect cry baby over it. But what kind of wife would i be if i wasn't? He left early yesterday morning and reported to MEPS at 05:45. i wished he had been a little more solemn about the whole thing... but i suppose i can't blame him for being a little excited, i mean, he HAS wanted to do this for years. He called me from the aiport about a quarter to 12, and i was so excited to hear from him that i didn't even ask questions. He said he was safe, and would be flying to Georgia and having a two hour layover before going on to South Carolina. i was hoping he would call again from Georgia, but he didn't. :( I tried very hard not to be a cry baby at work, and in my opinion, it was a huge improvement from what it was when my dad was gone. yes i did cry, and have cried multiple times, but i can atleast get out a smile occasionally and i'm stilll thinking positive about life. I miss him horribly already, but am writing him a letter each night before bed, and i think that will help to keep me sane. Jess and i have all sorts of plans to keep us busy, and i'm hoping it will help me to be not quite so lazy! Jess was so sweet and took pictures of us together the night before he left, so i'm hoping to be posting them soon. I've got a long list of things i am going to try to improve on while he is gone, and while we are waiting for little Connor to arrive. I had to go into the Doctor's today to take my glucose test, and i'm pretty confidant that there will be no problems. Poor Minda is having such a hard time with her pregnancy, and didn't pass either test, and now has Gestational Diabetes. I suppose we should have expected it since this pregnancy has been so hard on her... but she was very sad about it. I don't think i could handle having a problem like that while Caleb is gone... its all so different for me, and i miss him and miss sharing all the moments with him, but i know its a good thing that he is doing, and its what he wants to do. I am very sad that i will not be allowed to go to his graduation, due to the fact that i will be so close to full term. Most airlines won't let me fly that close, and i doubt my doctor would let me go without putting up a fight. And besides that, Caleb told me as much as he wants me there, he would feel better knowing his baby and wife are safe on the ground. So, as much as i am dying to go, i will respect his wishes and stay here and not risk complicating the pregnancy. I will just continue to write each day, and whenever i get a letter back i will be over joyed! i don't have his address yet, but that is not stopping me from writing every day until i get it. then i will just have to send him a whole bunch all at once! We are hopeful that this will be a good experience for both of us, even though it is extremely hard, and such a new thing for us.... but hey, sometimes the things that are hardest, are what mean the most to you in the end.