It's Just Not My Friend.....

you're probably wondering "what the heck is she talking about???? what's not her friend????" well, i'll tell you.

COOKING...... baking.... anything that has to do with food pretty much...its really not my friend.

i have this uncanny ability to ruin anything i try to cook for my poor husband :( last night i decided to make him this easy cheesecake i found in the cupboard that looked SO YUMMY!!!! i was even going to attempt to make it extra special and add my own starwberry filling stuff that i found a recipe for. i was pretty nervous that it would turn out disgusting, but it looked pretty darn delicious. so i tasted a bit as i handed a big slice to Caleb.... and yeah.... uh, it was definently DISGUSTING! i couldn't figure out what was wrong with it, but after a bit i thought to myself...uh... is that stale i'm tasting????? so i mention my thought to Caleb and he has the brilliant idea to check the expiration date. why didn't i think of that?!?!?!?! it would have saved me a whole load of embarassement after my husband points out to me that i just fed him cheesecake that expired in 2009..... way to go Rebecca! nasty! so then i had to throw the whole beautiful creation away, and brush my teeth to get rid of the horrible taste. totally humiliating huh??? that seems to be the norm whenever i attempt to go above and beyond when in the kitchen. i should probably stick to the easy, cheap, simply cooked meals. grrr.

And another reason i'm just not friends with cooking and food is that i can't seem to eat healthy enough to loose weight! i think i've hit a wall with it, and i'm steadily loosing my motivation to work out. its horrible, and i really need some encouragement, but nothings working. i just hate it :( it was working wonderfully when i could just make my portion sizes smaller, but now that i'm cooking for Caleb also, he eats alot more than me, so i have to make bigger meals and i sit there and eat a ton as i chat to him over dinner. it is HORRIBLE!!! sometimes i think i need someone to save me from my own bad habits! :( Caleb and i go on walks several times a week, and we walk about 1 1/2 miles. he makes me keep a pretty brisk pace (well its seems brisk to me, but i know he slows down alot for me) so atleast i'm doing a bit of a workout. i feel horrible though. its definently time to reevaluate my workout goals, and learn some nutritious recipes that i won't ruin!!!