Big Plans!

My last couple posts have been full of pictures and cute stories of Connor, but haven't said much about what has been going on with Caleb and I, and it might have been obvious that i have been extremely stressed out. theres no easy way to explain exactly what was stressing me out other than to just say i had no clue where life was headed! i'm not the kind of person that can go through life everyday changing my plans or even NOT having plans for my life. i need plans, and backup plans, and at least some idea of where we hope to be in the next year that i can feel good about. the problem was that we had our same plans we made a long time ago, but i no longer felt confidant in them. there was no reason for feeling the way i did, other than that i think it was Heavenly Father's way of trying to tell me we would be much better off doing something different. As i was praying and seeking some sort of an answer as to why i felt like i did, and how i could figure out what it was we need to be doing, the thought kept occuring to me that we should move back to Idaho. i didn't think there was much possibility in it since we are tied down here with Caleb's school and the National Guard, but i still suggested it to Caleb, and was quite disappointed when he didn't seem to want to discuss it. As more weeks went by i became more and more stressed and unhappy, especially about living here in Arizona. but was trying very hard to find a different answer as to what i could do to stop feeling the way i was, and make sure we had our life figured out, but nothing seemed to make a difference. I  was just deciding that i just had to deal with it and quit having a pity party, when out of the blue, Caleb asks my opinion of moving to Idaho next year! i literally thought he was joking since he knew how bad i wanted to move back home, but he wasn't! he had a whole list of reasons why it would benefit us to move back, and had put some serious thought into it all. he said that he hadn't wanted to discuss it before because he had needed to figure out what he thought about it all and work it through in his head before stressing me out about it. he knows how much i can't stand when people talk to me about things and then change their mind a million times. boy do i love him! he knows me so well! :)

So now we are slowly, but surely, making plans to move back to Idaho next year! our lease on these apartments doesn't get up until next February, so it won't be until at least February, but probably not too long after that. we are trying to get an idea of our plans and how to make it all work before setting anything in stone. moving is expensive, and stressful, but we both feel like Idaho is where we need to be. We are trying to figure out schooling options, and how to work out the national guard things right now before we worry about making any other plans, but it is definitely a work in progress! soooooo excited!!! :)